So, I want to know, is there any one out there that was depressed while prego?
CAUTION: RANT AHEAD
I'm not feeling this whole pregnancy thing. Don't get me wrong, I'm excited about my life, husband and future baby. I'm just... sad. I can't explain it. I don't feel like ME anymore. I think I might be depressed.
AND THAT MAKES ME FEEL HORRIBLY GUILTY.
I tried explaining it to my husband last night, and he completely didn't understand. And actually made me feel worse. (Which lead to me insanely crying. Poor Michael, he didn't know what happened haha.) Cause in his head, its only 9 months of sacrifice. I feel bad that I want it to be over. I haven't really enjoyed it at all. I don't feel special like other women do. And it makes me feel horrible when I hear/read women saying how much they loved being pregnant. I pretty much can't stand it.
I have no energy or ambition anymore. I don't want to do anything except lay around. It makes me feel bad cause my hubs will come home and ask me what did I do today. "Nothing" I don't draw or read or anything. I'm a blob.
I feel ugly and super fat. I can't stop thinking about my super tree trunk legs and my huge hips.
I have crappy skin now. Its dry and oily at the same time. wtf?
I can't remember or think anymore! My brain is vacant now.
I'm just done. I feel bad that I'm not cooing over this belly. I mean, I love it when I feel him kick, and like it when my husband kisses my belly or rubs it. But I look at the other gals that are prego right now, and they are constantly swooning over their bump. And I have to constantly work on being upbeat about it. I feel almost fake.
WHATS WRONG WITH ME?!?!
I guess I should just suck it up. Its only 9 months, and I'll be able to go back to being me. I'm just scared that if I feel like this right now, how will I feel when Quentin is actually here. And I DO WANT HIM. I sound like a whiney little wuss right now. Sorry.